True Narcissistic Haven

Thursday, April 23, 2009

White Horse
As I pace back and forth all this time
'CauseI honestly believed in you
Holdin' on,
The days drag on
Stupid girl I should have known, I should have known

That I'm not a princess
This ain't a fairytale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain't Hollywood,
This is a small town
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down

Maybe I was naïve,
Got lost in your eyes
I never really had a chance.
My mistake, I didn't know to be in love you had to fight to have the upperhand.
I had so many dreams about you and me.
Happy endings;
Now I know

Bittersweet Life
Lonely, stubborn and complacent
You have insisted on leaving me here
Writing the same song I started last year
Lovely conjunctions and phrases
Plays on a few words that you never meant
I must have misread all of the signals you never sent

It's a bittersweet life
And it's leaving me A-OK
Bittersweet life
I have loved and lost my heart along the way

Maybe I could still hold you
Or you could call if you feel so inclined
Please take your time locating whatever you're trying to find
And maybe it's time to let go
But I'm too scared and I'm so unprepared
How do I forget every moment in time that we shared

Thinking Of You
Comparisons are easily done
Once you've had a taste of perfection
Like an apple hanging from a tree
I picked the ripest oneI still got the seed

You said move on
Where do I go
I guess second best
Is all I will know

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes

You're like an Indian summer
In the middle of winter
Like a hard candy
With a surprise center
How do I get better
Once I've had the best
You said there's
Tons of fish in the water
So the waters I will test

Harder Than You Know
Are we just lost in time?
I wonder if your love's the same.
'Cause I'm not over you

Baby, don't talk to me.
I'm trying to let go
Not loving you is harder then you know.
'Cause girl your driving me so crazy

How can I miss you if you never would stay?
If you need time I guess I'll go away.
Inside me now there's only heartache and pain!
So where's the fire?
You've begun the rain.

And if you don't want me thenI guess
I'll hav'ta go!
Not loving you is harder then you know.

So I'll make the call,
And I'll leave you today
I'm gona miss you 'cause I love you baby
Yeah, I'll make the call
I'm leaving today

Let It Go
I'm on the verge of a break down
I'm on the brink of an epic meltdown
I'm on the way to a flat-line

No, I don’t really want to leave you behind
But apparently you can’t stay all mine
So I'll try to let you go

You’re not mine to own

If I let it go
If I let this go
If I let you go
Would the scars continue to show

A Little Not Over You
Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind meI'm not over it
Tell me whyI can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you

Memories supposed to fade
What's wrong with my heart
Shake it off let it go
Didn't think it would be this hard
Should be strong, moving on
But I see you

Songs. Songs Songs. Its queer how certain songs speak to you at different times. Certain lyrics you pay attention to in different circumstances. They may have always been in ur playlist, u might know the tune to all the songs. But how often have you paid attention to lyrics? When ur happy, would you hear the lyrics of these songs? I know i didnt. Now, they are waving at me for attention. Im giving them my 101%

huiwen is an idiot who never learns her lesson no matter how hard she falls each time. stupid girl. all she ever does after each fall is to pile up her schedule and fill up every single slot of her time. Or just stay at home and not go anywhere. Extreme.

huiwen is always going on about how she put on her happy shell and soak herself in happy blood whenever she faces people, anyone, as long as they breathe (yes even dogs and cats). But she has never been able to face people and talk to people without the happy shell. yes people, huiwen is actually an emoshit.

i miss people.
i miss sean
i miss liang
i miss yuan
i miss licia
i miss ryan
i miss mak
i miss zac
i miss O LEVELS!

thankyou maffees for sustaining the happy huiwen
thankyou ken for keepling happy huiwen loved
thankyou meiyu, jeremy, gloria, darren for going crazy with huiwen

huiwen is gonna stay at home and rot tml.
put on the happy suit at night and have mahjong session.

weeeeeee. -.-

vyevye!♥