it has been a long time since i blogged properly. it has been a long time since i blog for the sake of regurgitating all the shit that has been stored in my body to the brim. In fact, every single post on the current page are all random spurts of emotions and random moments of explosions from me. There are even traces of the "what i do from rise and shine till bedtime" posts that i always laugh at guys who post it.
people who are here for gossips you can click the cross on the top right hand corner now. people who are here to see the usual splashes of pictures and photos now, you can fuck off too. huiwen isnt in the mood to entertain anyone. since thursday till now all the way to sunday, she wants to keep the time to herself and herself only. Her phone has been off-ed since friday night. On the byline, people stop asking her if she wants to go clubbing, if she wants to, she'll look for you. Stop asking her if she wants to go shopping, if she feels like it, she'll ask. huiwen just wants to stay alone. let her stay with the memories all the way till sunday, and she will stand up on monday a new person and forget all the tears and pain. dont ask her what happened either, she wouldnt tell anyone. not a single soul.
within such a short week. i know which are the people who are true and those who arent. well, at least i know who arent. licia ever said im a social butterfly. I never really understood the true meaning of social butterfly, so i looked it up. "Someone who is VERY social and easygoing; can be either a male or a female. Usually these people don't belong to a particular group, but rather jump from one group to another. They are somewhat accepted in all of them, but don't really have any deep friendship connections in any of them."
Bulleye then licia. Everyone is always saying i have alot of friends. In primary school, i know people from EM1 to EM3, i know people from the first class to the last. I was in everything from prefect to chinese dancer to speech and drama. My hp contacts filled up my memory card (limited space 10 years ago) But then again, when shit comes, there are few contacts i will actually stop by and press call. Becos its so long ago, i dont remember much. But becox of my very bad memory, there are few who stays in my mind. But these few, i know, must have been alot to me for me to remember them. Although we were all only 12.
When i got to temasek, the social butterfly in me got even worse. During sec one orientation, becox the entire bball team thought i looked like a sec 4 senior, they all came asking if i was her sister. And slowly, my life pretty much revolved around the bball court. But becox the huiwen in me has always loved being on stage infront of audience, i got to join a cca that allowed me to do tt. I didnt join dance becox it was malays dominated (in my time) so i joined choir, and since then fell in love with it. (although im always skipping practices to go join the bballers by the court) And becox the hyperactive and ethu huiwen is me needs somewhere to vent all the energy, i joined PSL as well and become part of temasek's student leaders. So for people who are always asking why i seem to know the whole school. THIS is how i seem to know people from ah bengs and ah lians, to nerds and geeks, to big hoohaa band rockers. But becox i know so many people and seem to clique with so many. How true are all of them. Not everyone will be true becox honestly, they belong to totally different worlds. There are bound to be people not liking others.
I remembered when i first entered my sec one class, it took me very long to settle down on true friends. After a few months or so, me and syak seems to be the most unmatched bestfriends. I am a chinese whom everyone tot i was malay cox my my charcoal skin colour, and syak is a malay everyone thought was chinese cox she is so fair. nadya also became part of me becox she is older and matured enough to tolerate the shit me and syak always comes out with. Sim also became a very impt person in my life becox only he can take all the rubbish i had and i was so reliant on him. Although the entire class didnt know everyone THAT well, we were so united when it came to things like going against fucking teachers who called us prostitutes just becox of the way we sit, or going against some people, WHO DECIDES TO CALL HERSELF AUTUMN, just becox she is being plain ridiculous and retarded (I will never forget the first week of school when she wrote on whiteboard with permanent marker that she likes sim)
When leo's batch left, which is also the year syak left for tjc, which is also the year i had to go to a new class. It took so long for me to get use to it. Becos suay suay, the class i got into was a lit class. You know, lit students, speak up alot and talk straight to the point, we are not a bunch who hide our feelings. Which means, dont you dare come fuck shit on us. But well, somehow my class gathered all the LOUD ppl from each and every sec 2 class. And you know, there are bound to be people who really dont like each other, ALOT of people who dont like ALOT of people. My upper sec class started like hell becox, it was a staring fight everyday. But soon, time bonded us. And we didnt allow any teacher to give us shit. Fuckers who come into class scolding us every single day, blowing his tantrum on us and shouting at us as if he was a hooligan, got his own shit becox YOU DONT GIVE 4U BULLSHIT AND GET AWAY WITH IT. Our class got so famous becox of all the shit we got into and the amount of attention the principal and discipline committee placed on us.
But then again, after we graduate. You'll see whats left. Some people whom you thought were your best friends, not the case afterall. People whom you thought were just friends, stay by your side throughout.
Till now, after 2 years in poly, im still trying to figure out the true and the just for the sake friends. And after thinking so much... do i really want to invite everyone i know on my birthday? Do i really want to party with people whom i know are going to disappear on the next day. I guess i got to figure out what i really want. I have till 3 May to decide anyway.
Till the next post peeps. Byes =)
# On second thoughts, huiwen has put down everything =) huiwen is done with her emo-ing =)
Happy Blood Is Back =)
vyevye!♥