True Narcissistic Haven

Thursday, September 20, 2007

Oooookay. Huiwen is back! Like after quite sometime. I know you people miss me. =) Stopped blogging because my life was nothing but emptiness. It has been pretty bad lately. And i dont know what is my fucking problem either. There must be something wrong with me. Im damn fickle. Like suddenly. Dont know why either. And im starting to piss myself off alot. Driving myself to tears just because of frustration, with myself. See, i dont know what is darn wrong with me.

My sudden urge to blog again starts with a sms from ryan just now. My phone says there was an sms from babe, and for a while, i couldnt recall who babe was. See chan hao en, it has been THAT long since you smsed me okay! So ry said he was in SP. And he will be performing with the acapella grp with aimran at the sp choir concert at vch on sunday. And i suddenly miss him and his beatboxing so much. I so want to go watch on sunday. But who the hell will wanna go watch sp choir? (no offence, but seriously) So i was talking to merv abt it. And he sent me some of TAG's old recordings. Omigosh memories. Listening to those memories felt pretty weird, its like im detached from it. And i teared listening to it. I miss the TAG feeling.

SP sucks so much ok. Im not being an antisocial. But there isnt anyone i feel like socialising with. Seriously. Ok, not true. I like the dance people. I kinda grew attached to them. But recently, as i said there was something wrong with me, i dont know what is holding me back. I suddenly wanted to quit dance and then dont want to quit. Oh damn it lah.

And darn the promos. I want my licia! I want ryan! I want to tan with Anana! Ah! And darn O's too. Sean isnt free to hear me whine! And i havent seen goose and cheeyang in ages! God damn it.

Luckily there is vanessa, mel and shaun. Or i swear i will die.

vyevye!♥